A Man/Me/Then Jim: Yvonne says.

GOD is amazing, but you're amazing too (I guess). But he's more amazing than you'll ever be though. I guess you could say my mind was in a state of confusion for the past few weeks, after having friends leave and stuff... you know how it goes. I needed time to settle into the 6th form life and dealing with the friends that have left. It is so true.. people come and go, but He remains :) so please remember that! It's so weird though, because last night... I just felt...... unsure, confuzzled and blank. I wanted someone to talk to, but then I scrolled down my phone book, and funny how I did not easily stop at a single name at all...... It's during these times when you ponder who are your real friends? and where have your friends gone? because all of our friendships are at a different level with each person.. and yeah, sometimes it's hard to decide which friend you want to share things with. I was listening to "Amazing Grace" and "Lift Up Your Eyes" and this other song by Planetshakers and I just broke down and worshipped the Lord on my knees. I was just talking to the LORD after that... and I just thanked Him for always being there for me, and for never ever leaving me. It's time that I start to change the way I think, because it was affecting me emotionally, mentally and physically I guess. It's okay, people will always come back. Even though it's lonely in 6th form, it's okay... it really is ok :) I flipped my bible to 1KINGS 8:22-61 last night and the title really speaks for itself- Solomon's prayer of "dedication". I want to always give my best and fully dedicate myself to God.. because He's first, and nobody else.

46 "When they sin against you—for there is no one who does not sin—and you become angry with them and give them over to the enemy, who takes them captive to his own land, far away or near; 47 and if they have a change of heart in the land where they are held captive, and repent and plead with you in the land of their conquerors and say, 'We have sinned, we have done wrong, we have acted wickedly'; 48 and if they turn back to you with all their heart and soul in the land of their enemies who took them captive, and pray to you toward the land you gave their fathers, toward the city you have chosen and the temple I have built for your Name; 49 then from heaven, your dwelling place, hear their prayer and their plea, and uphold their cause. 50 And forgive your people, who have sinned against you; forgive all the offenses they have committed against you, and cause their conquerors to show them mercy; 51 for they are your people and your inheritance, whom you brought out of Egypt, out of that iron-smelting furnace.

I for sure don't want to be given over to the enemy and I hope that you will learn from your wrongdoings and ask the Spirit to guide you in whatever things you do. Know that God is always with you wherever you are, even though you may feel "nothing", He is still there. I remember someone asked.. "now that we are considered as part of the body of Christ, do we continue to sin?" of course there is no one in this world that does not sin, but because we have chosen a new path and a new life, we should always try not to sin, and not because we have to stop swearing, or we have to stop lying, etc but because we love Jesus, so we decide to stop. He will rescue us when we're in deep trouble, and He'll get us out from whatever hole we have fallen into... you just gotta have faith and believe :)

I was contemplating about what Jeremy had preached on last friday cuz it really got to me. So today I said Hi to almost all teachers and jus some random people who smiled at me :D However I did see this new girl in my year sitting by herself at lunch.. and this other guy who's in my english class sitting alone too. I so badly wanted to go up to them and talk to them and stuff, just to make them feel a bit.. comfortable. I mean, who likes sitting alone man!? by the time I decided to, they went off! hahahaha so maybe next time :) I know the right things to do now, it's just a matter of fact whether I choose to follow them or just turn back to my old ways. I can't remember the last time I fought with my mum.. or screamed (but when I yell, I don't really yell at her, I just yell cause both of us are really loud people and we always go "HAH?? HAH??") so I guess you can say I got the "ha??!?!" and being partially deaf thing from my mommaaaa~ cuz I got it from my mommaaa~ but yeah, things are going good :)