Y; God's love for us.

It is safe to say that sometimes, especially when we're so engrossed in our work and everything else that we do, we tend to forget about the One who loves us, and loved us first. We love because He loved us first. People are always boasting about their love for GOD, but we rarely hear people boasting about God's love for US.

1 JOHN 4:10; "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."

The law is us loving God, but it is grace that shows God's love for us. Our love for God fluctuates and wavers, and I guess this is because during those busy moments in school, work and at home, we forget, and sometime the thought just slips. For example: Our love for God is at its highest on Sunday and Monday, however by Tuesday it falls a little, and by Wednesday, it drastically falls, but by Friday it goes back up again. Our love for God always fluctuates. Always. However we need to believe and know that God's love for us is fixed and unchanging! We need to keep our eyes on that is fixed.. because from that we REALIZE. Much rejoicing needs to come from the fact that GOd's love for us is always fixed, and it will never change. It is stable. I suppose it takes revelation to talk about His love for us because we can only really ever know when we truly experience and focus on God's love for us.

The devil never mentions God's love for us, it is blatantly obvious that the devil wouldn't want to stress on such a fact. Whenever the devil addresses the children of God, he never says "if you are the BELOVED Son of God" but instead says "if you are the SON OF GOD". We can see this in Luke 4:3 "The devil said to him, "If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread." The devil always tries to take away the knowledge of God's love whenever he can, and this is why it's seemingly important to never forget why we love in the first place.. it is because He loved us first!

It is finally time for us to focus on GOD's love FOR US rather than OUR LOVE for HIM. BOAST and REJOICE in the LORD's love for US! Just enjoy and be still in his presence.. and to you who is reading this, rejoice and be glad and find comfort to know that Someone worth more than anything in this world loves you!

Yvonne's getting one of these!

my iPod mini is dead.
my iPod shuffle still works, but it gets kinda annoying how I cant choose a specific song haha
MUAHAHAH so I'll be getting the new iPodnano (video hoho) in KL hopefully!

K anyways, back to my english lit essay...

Yvonne just needed to say.

HELLO WORLD!, meet my best friends- Hakim and Muiz.
I've known Hakim since diapers and he only lives 4 houses away, yet I can't even remember the last time I saw him. I've known Muiz since Yr4, and it's been 8 long funny years.. he lives five minutes away from me.

I have 20 minutes to write down what I have to say at this moment in time.

I remember it started as well, the two of them.. then I became nosy and bumped in the group, so it was the 3 of us. I remember having weird hang-outs with them (malu wah) but everything was okay afterwards. Hakim is very silly and badui. We used to go cycling everyday, and that was our 'ultimate' hang-out plan; "hey kim, meet you outside in 2 minutes k, cycle!!" and we would have stupid races and say "ha ha I BEAT YOU" and he would always say something stupid like "ciao amigo" or something. Then I remember staying at his place the whole night till 6a.m. watching one tree hill (i think) or just watching movies. Hakim's house has a very nice smell, it's like.... I dunno how to explain, but iLOVESit. When he's nervous or anxious, he'll start to walk like really fast in a weird way, hahaha. Ohh Hakim is very self-conscious. You put him somewhere with like, ten thousand people, and he'll want to go back home like RLYFAST hahaha. KAN??? I really miss hanging around with Hakim because he always reminds me to never forget to laugh and breathe a little when things are too tight. I remember having silly fights with him, but it's cool cause we're stil friends :) 20 years from now, I think he'll still be living 4 houses away from me. but.. we'll have to see, won't we? He's got my back, and he knows I've got his. AWESUMMMMMM

"AM IDRIS" is cool and funny. I can't even remember why we were friends to begin with. However we were in the same tutor group for several years, until we got seperated in Yr9 (sigh so painful) hahaha but it was KOO, cuz we re-united in YR10-11!! :D 14minutes. Iz has given me my famous nickname; "chipsus/chipz" (which everyone in school has been calling me, practically my 2nd name man) all because he said "Chipsus for one dollaaa" haha. Lowbattery! well he is in UK now, studying at some school, I forgot what.. haha. yeah, just shows how much we know about each other huh, hahaha. nahh hes cooo and I miss him loads. I remember having stupid phone calls with him, but it always started with "what homework do we have??" to "HahAHAhaha WHAT THE HECK! REALLY?!?!" conversations. I owe it to him that I'm into this whole singing thing, because Iswear I never thought I would eva evahhhhhhh sing in my whole laip.. but because he believed in me! :) He's my guitarist and music partner, and right now, I don't have any. I don't think anyone else can replace him though. "How to save a life" by The Fray is our theme song. He also has a cool driver, his name is Didin- he's short and funny too. I really miss Iz a lot, and things aren't the same without him here, honestly. BUT with our powers combined... BUBUCHACHA!!!!

Thank you (to the both of you) for being there for me, whenever, wherever... I know I piss/annoy you guys off to the maxIMUSSSSS columBUSSSSS sometimes, but we both know you still love me just as much as I lurp you! we're just like family, and I always see the both of you as my older bruuuuuvassss :) I miss the both of you. Come back, wherever you guys are. Love you much!


oh and incase you're wondering, its almost 3am, I know. but I slept at 8pm and woke up in the middle of the night cause I was thirsty. and I am also very excited for tomorrow! CAN"T WAIT TO SEE GOD MOVE :)

Rora went to Kew Gardens.

Oh man, my flickr account is almost going to finish. I didn't realise that i can only upload 200 photos :(

Psalm 139:24

Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, ^[a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to ^[b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
cause it's all about You
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I made it
when it's all about You, Jesus...

Yvonne says.

People will always let you down, so please, I'm begging you, depend on no one, but depend on GOD. Jesus saw you when He took the crown of thorns... his life, for yours.

Yvonne is in love with Jesus!

My sleeping patterns are so messed up, I sleep in the afternoon and wake up at 9.30pm, and I do my homework then. I just get so tired tired tired, and I just can't do work when my body's not even functioning properly! I'm looking forward for the dinner tomorrow :) PEOPLE! I need to be surrounded by PEOPLE! PEOPLE! PEOPLE! PEOPLE, where have you been? I haven't seen my friends since..... today's fire alarm but just barely. Well I saw Andy and we spoke for 10 seconds and had to go. I didn't even get to wish Carmen happy birthday in person :( Life in the sixth form is lonelylonelylonely. I don't know why I'm repeating things three times.

So it looks like I may/may not be going to UK afterall in December.. because instead I will be going to Philippines to see my grandmother. Hopefully Melissa will be able to come with me.. I really believe God's gonna do something for my Lolapin (grandma). I refuse to believe that she is 'half-dead', but she will be HEALED. I'm not too sure about it, and lately I'm not too sure about a lot of things. I need to be around people. I haven't had a decent conversation with someone in school for a long time. It's just work work, school, work, break, lunch, work, school work, then I'm home.

I haven't touched my piano since.. well, an hour ago. but I only practised for 30minutes which is unacceptable, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I need to fix my sleeping hours and my working hours. The only person I can turn to right now is always GOD. Other people are too caught up with their own things, and some caught up with their own problems, so I wouldn't wanna stand in the way of that. Damn, it's so true... through whatever, God remains. He's always always always there.. and He's proved that to me a month or so ago. Just when I really needed Him.


Bernard L, Melissa L, Angel C, Diana C, Rora C, Darren C, Nabila H, Derek W, Matthew N.

...thank you.

and God, I love you sosososmuch. and thank you for always being here with me :) I love you sooooooooo much. where would I be without You here in my life? You're all I live for Jesus :) You have taught me so much in just a year. I can't wait for eternity with you :) this whole year with you was the bomb-diggidy-bomb, so what does eternity make? an explosion of happiness maybe.. but all I know is, for sure, I'm with YOU :) I love you so much. like seriously seriouslyyyyy! You are the only WAY, the only TRUTH, and the only way people will ever find their meaning and purpose in LIFE :) I love you dude :D

Oh, I forgot to mention. Since I'm not around with my friends/anyone so much anymore in school, I'm always feeling closer to Him every time. cuz I know He's always always always with me. He's there for me. He's there for YOU.