Audioslave - Doesn't remind me

i walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
with a graveyard tan carrying a cross
i like studying faces in a parking lot
i like driving backwards in the fog
because it doesnt remind me of anything.

gypsy moths and radio talk,
gospel music and canned applause,
colourful clothing in the sun,
hammering nails and speaking in tongues.

the things that i've loved
the things that i've lost
the things that i've held sacred
the things that i've dropped
i won't lie no more you can bet
i don't want to learn what i'll need

i like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
cause it doesn't remind me of anything
i like playing in the sand,
what's mine is ours
cause it doesn't remind me of anything

Evermore

Hahaha isn't that cute? Well school's been alright, and my GCSE Chinese Speaking Exam went quite well, I was really happy :) the 7 hours of practise was definitely worth it!

Well I went to watch the AM Gunners vs Projek Ikan Pusu Charity Match on Saturday night @ some stadium and it was pretty cool cause it was my second time to watch a football match. As always, I was really concentrated bu then Sarah Rahman came! I haven't seen her in mooooons and she was finally there!! well yeah it was really fun hanging out and catching up with her again, my year6 best friend haha. Theres always this warm feeling when you meet and catch up with an old friend...


I was really upset I couldn't go to Easter Sunday Service :( but I heard the message was really good and loadsa people got saved :) praise the Lord! I'm looking forward to Acts this friday, think I'm playing in the Worship Team too so yeah!

I'll be attending the Hillsong Conference '07 in Sydney, Australia with my mummy in July :) other youths and adults will be going as well, I can't wait!! I'm really excited :) and I'll be seeing Rora in Decemberrrrrr!!! I really can't wait for that too.

I've got loads of things to look forward to, but I gotta concentrate on my studies first. and it's kinda hard sometimes when a lot of things are going on in your head, but then I remember God's by my side always, and I dont need to worry cause He's the one handling everything.


I would be lying if I said I was happy at JIS, but I've got a few more months to get through this. It's all in God's hands now, and wherever He brings me, I will follow Him. I've gotta just put that into action, and I'm learning how to slowly. It's hard, but I know His ways are better than mine fo'sho! I dont know who I hang around with anymore these days, and it's kind of weird, but I'm going to say I kind of like it. I like the idea of not sticking with a group, and just going with whoever. People can really forget you sometimes, but its okay. I have learned how to get up on my own two feet, and when I dont want to, He gives me strength. Also with the loss, I've gained.. and I'm so glad for that. It's been a long time since I've told someone about anything and everything in school. I'm slowly talking to old friends again which is really nice :)

lost for words with all to say
Lord You take my breath away
steal my soul, my soul cries out
for You are Holy
and as I look upon Your name
circumstances fade away
Now Your glory steals my heart,
for You are Holy.
Evermore my heart, my heart will sing..
above all, I live for Your glory
and even if my world falls I will song above all,
I live for Your glory!

The I Heart Revolution

We live in a broken world. A world where over two thirds of the population live in poverty. A world that's crying out for answers - a world that's crying out for hope. The time to act is now. We can't rely on governments for change, we must be the ones to carry that responsibility. THIS is our mandate: to change the world. The "I Heart Revolution" is a DVD documentary project dedicated to highlighting what's happening in the world today. We believe it's through worship that we touch the heart of God and through the eyes and experiences of Hillsong United we'll be challenged to see the need and moved to do something about it as they bring worship to nations around the globe.

Let's act.

Let's start a revolution.

"THE REVOLUTIONARY EMPIRE OF GOD IS HERE - ADVANCING BY RECONCILIATION AND PEACE; EXPANDING BY FAITH; HOPE AND LOVE, BEGINNING WITH THE POOREST AND THE LEAST. IT'S TIME TO CHANGE YOUR THINKING - BE PART OF THE REVOLUTION...

Brian D. McClaren (paraphresed)

-Copyright Hillsong Church

The I Heart Revolution Official Website

weekend.

**SATURDAY**

10.15 – ART PREP WORK

12.45 – LUNCH TIME

1.15 – STUDY CHINESE

3.30 – ENGLISH SPEECH TEST

4.15 – CHANGE, GET READY FOR PIANO

5 – PIANO

6 – BOOKER KIULAP

7.15 – STADIUM

11.30 – SLEEP

**SUNDAY (EASTER SUNDAY!)**

8 – WAKE UP

9 – HISTORY REVISION/HOMEWORK

10.45 – CHINESE

1.15 – MATHS REVISION/HOMEWORK

3.30 – ENGLISH LITERATURE

5 – BREAK

5.30 – CHINESE

7 – EXTRA ART PREP WORK /FINISH OFF

8.45 – CHINESE RECAP

10 – WRITE SCHEDULEF OR MONDAY.

10.30 - SLEEP

Stonehenge

hello! just to say, this isn't von, but rora!!!! and i went to a place called stonehenge and yeah. you'll know where it is once you see the pictures :)


after a whole album of hillsong and smelly farts in the car we finally arrived.
toby was clearly overjoyed!

why are the rocks behind a fence!?!!?


hello daddy.

welcome tourists. welcome.

oh man, we can't leave.

check out my dad dangerously crossing the road...




this is how windy it is in salisbury!!!! in the middle of spring!!! just imagine the frostbite that you could get in the winter...






my grandma posing very nicely. well done mama.




jumping pictures!!!!



i can't believe we went there to look at a bunch of very old rocks....


snowball :)

toby thinks that this rock was more interesting than the others...


hahahahahaaha


and now i say...byebye!!!

BFF!

Dearest BFF,

It's 3:03a.m. and I'm still working on my art. I miss you heckloads even though we just talked just now on MSN. If it wasn't for msn and mobile phones and internet, where would we be? I think we would still be really close at heart :) but not as close! Thank God that He is gracious enough to keep us together :D It's been 8 months since we last saw each other, and I really really miss hanging out with you. I miss laughing at you and with you. I miss annoying you with all my whining and nonstop complaints. I miss laughing at weird people with you. I miss taking the underground with you. I miss going to richmond park with you. I miss walking around Hyde Park like we didnt know where we were and looking like idiots walking here and there and having people wave at us and waving back at them (well me anyways). I enjoyed going to that diner with you and your family, the one where there was this little jukebox in front of us and we would play all these old songs whilst we ate our hugeass chips. I miss going to Marks and Spencer with you, and feeling old hahahahaha. I miss shopping with you. I miss freaking you out whenever I thought I had lost my mobile. I miss walking around London with you. I miss trying on clothes with you. Remember that shopping mall (we went to so many, I forgot the names!) where we tried these hideous black dresses? You tried a blue one I think, I don't remember. hahahahaha. I miss sleeping in the same room with you. I miss going to your church at Sandown Park!! (I remember I saw the Sugababes Concert poster hahahaha it was like, XL man hahaha) I miss your Synergy friends! I miss Hanah and Barnabus, please tell them I said hi!!! I miss laughing at your friend's shoe.. I forgot her name though. Remember when we went to Office (the day I lost my topshop bag and stuff and the day I bought my red converses) and we saw the EXACT same shoe as your friend?!?! HAHa and we couldnt stop laughing. It had like, skulls or something. It was an EMO SHOE hahaha. Your friend seemed pretty emo too, I forgot her name!! Victoria? Vicky? Tiffany? no it wasn't tiffany. I remember her. Her name's "DROP/DEADBUZZ' on my space so ch-ch-check it out and tell me her name! :P Remember when we started scrapbooking? We were so INTO it, hahaha MR.BOXMAN!!! hahahahaha. Remember when we had to go up the stairs and cross that spiral thing whatever bridge to go to Richmond Park? Hahahaha I was soooo damn scared and you and Toby just kept laughing at me! I miss having quiet moments of Sudoku with you hahaha. I miss playing that GALAXIA game with you. I miss playing monopoly with you. I miss playing RISK with you and your dad and your brother. I miss hanging out at your balcony. I miss taking pictures with you because you're really the only person I like taking stupid and spontaneous pictures with. I miss your place man. I miss putting make up on your face, and you turning me into a sexyduckzzzzzface hahahaha. Remember this?:

Me: should I buy this??? should I?? how much is it?? *takes eyeshadow*
Rora: lbablablablablablabla
Me: could you please help me take my money from my baggggg
Rora takes money out of bag.
Me: blablablablalbalba *SUDDENLY MY MOBILE GOT INVOLVED*
*Von drops eyeshadow back and shoves it somewhere*
*Rora and Von dash out of BOOTS (was it boots?)*
and past the stores.
and in PRET-A-MANGER! HAHAha
Rora: xcuse me my friend left her phone here blablabla
*blonde ladies* OH gosh!!!!!! Oh dear!!!
*von laughing on the inside*
*rora still looking for the mobile and interacting with the blondies*
*von takes a last glance of the (WHAT WAS IT CALLED? THE PRAWN THINGES hahah)*
*rora and von dashes out of PREt-A-MANGER*
and into the carpark!

and then we go all the way back just to buy that eyeshadow. hahaha #1 URBAN DECAY FANS!! hahahahahaha.

I miss staying in your headach-ey car with you for like 6hours!??! going to Lake District! :D I miss laughing at the COWS and making fun of them with you. I miss taking pictures at Lake District with you. I miss that 'garden' that was at the Bed and Breakfast Hotel we stayed at, cause we would always do our morning exercises there hahahaha! (the heck). I miss watching BIG BROTHER with YOU hahahahahahahahaha.

Man, I miss you so much dude. I want to live with you one day, like, in a boarding house. Even though that's not possible because you already have a place. Perhaps some time when we're 20something, we could live together and laugh until we choke on lemon brulees. haHAhahahahahahahaahahahah

Rora's dad: let's go watch a movie
me: OK!!!!! :D:D:D:D
*roras family and von stares at movie posters outside cinema at Lake District*
uhh..................
*von and rora looks at the stormbreaker poster and contemplates*
von: this looks stupid. *points*
rora and von: hahahahahahahahhahahahahaahAHAHahahahahah
*laughs while staring at the dude's face* hahahahahahahahahaha


Remember when we were (sorta) fighting over the fortune cookies at that fricking expensive chinese restaurant!? HAhaha so stupidddd. Oh man I miss you so much!!! but I'll be seeing you in December. Bring me to stonehenge please??!??!?! and we can go backpacking around London (hahahah). oh and I also miss walking and hanging out at that riverside thingies 10minutes away from your place. I miss skipping stones with you and your brother!! I need to retouch my skillzzzzz. REMEMBER WHEN there was that insect or something on the blanket? hahahahah!!! you freaked out man. so stupid. I think I freaked out too hahaha. I miss going to SAINSBURYS with you!! hahaha remember the first thing I bought was that cake icing thing!? WTC?!? HAHAhaha. I miss eating marks and spencer food with you. I miss showering in your toilet because I could always listen to music hahahaha! We'll do cooler stuff in December okay? We'll visit like, art galaries or something. THAT REMINDED ME! remember there was this picasso or something art exhibition near the london eye? and i told you to take a picture of me and the guy pretending to be Picasso who couldnt speak english!? hahahahahaahahhah. He looked stupid too :P

Thank you for being so patient with me and thank you for being there for me, even though we're like a thousand gazijibilion miles apart. Stupich (MARK STUPICH!) 7-8hour time difference, but it doesnt stop us does it? I remember you wanted the polaroid book for christmas or something, and it was SO FUN opening it!! hahahaha COOLEST PACKAGING EVER! but when you saw it you didnt like it anymore hahaha. Man, thank you for all the laughters and thank you for being YOU but thank God most of all for keeping us so close still, and for our friendship! Even though we're so far away it feels like you're so near and that I just saw you yesterday. I miss you sosososososososo much and we're so alike but so different in so many ways. I'm so happy we're not totally the same because I think I would collapse hahahaha. I remember I thought you were a showoff in year7 and I didn't like you that much but we became friends in year 8 and became better friends in year9 and became the best of friends in Year10, just when you were about to leave. but really, we became this close just about when you left, and it's okay that you're not here with me because I know that God's answering my prayers for you and your family to be safe. Thank you always for keeping me in your prayers and you and your family are like family to me too. I really do hope we move in together when we're older, and we can go to concerts together and go shopping together. We could have our own ART EXHIBITION, because we're that cool. It's 3:30a.m. now and I still havent finished my art work, so I'm going to do that now. I've got school in 3 hours, and I miss you loads.

Where would I be without you?
..Frankly, I really do not know!

I love you dude, more than lemon brulees and "THE HAWT DUDEZ IN YR9" HAhaha (if you remember!! cant mention his name, its too PUBLICIZEDDD :P)

Lotsa love,
the wang wang that you and your friend yvonne laughed at.
HAHAhaha SO LAME!

fifteen movie tickets please = $105

It's 1:44a.m. and it's the first day of school tomorrow (in a few hours!) and I'm still awake. Today was a really weird day, things didn't go as planned but I got some work done in the end anyway so I'm glad about that :D GCSE Exams are nearing and I have promised myself that I wouldn't go out anymore, plus the last movie with fourteen people was too much anyway hahaha but a great way to remember my last movie before the exams. I'm hanging onto people's words for hangouts after the exam though :D


I'm so thankful for Angel! She has motivated me to study study study and to get a schedule done and to get things right! and to push on :) I'm so excited, I know the next few days/weeks/months are gonna be hard for me and I know I will be getting constant headaches and I will be wanting to give up every now and then but I've gotta remember to stay strong for Him. and through Christ, all things are possible =)

I am not gonna stop attending service, and I'm gonna learn how to balance both my studies and God, and it's kinda weird actually because without God, I think I would be a very depressed/stressed person right now, seeing the situation that I am in.

Easter Sunday's coming up, and I think I'm playing viola!? I don't know, I dont really have time for any extra music stuff. I don't even have time to practise piano anymore and I'll be sitting my grade8 in September!!! frick man!!

I just realized how comitted I am in serving God today. I couldn't make it to service on time today and I was supposed to be playing drums for the Worship Team but I had to go to my grandpa's death anniversary early this morning. I left the cemetery at around 10a.m. along with all my other relatives and on the way to service, I was tearing in the car a little bit for around good ten minutes because I really wanted to be part of the Worship Team today, I don't know why. I guess it's because I'm doing it for Him that I'm so comitted, and I never like missing out on practises anyway, especially on the real day :( but it's all good, there's always a next time!

I've got school in 6 hours, so bye :)