A Man/Me/Then Jim

DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i'm so proud of you!!!! :D
i wans gna put a cheesy picture of fireworks and champagne and stuff like that but its 9:25am and i can't be bothered. I'M GOING TO SCHOOL IN AN HOUR :O:O:O:O man i am actually so proud of you. ALL THOSE HOURS THAT YOU SPENT STUDYING, NOW LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE. ok tht sounds like you've done something bad. no, what you've done is veryveryveryveryvery GOOD :D man i love you! i'll sue my dad's phone to text you my results. man i'm so happy for you! and also your mentality for dealing with the results that you were disappointed with is so much better than yesterday :)

dude i love you! i'll text you!
and i got no more credit but like i said i'll use my dad's phone.
MAKE YOUR MAMA PROUD!

So my childhood best friend, Gayle, visited and stayed with me for 6 days! All the way from America! Amazing how 6 years didn't really seem like... well, 6 years. Janjan sleptover and the three of us hung out just like the old days! Janjan is another childhood best friend and even though she's in Brunei, I haven't seen her in agessss! It's kinda crazy now that I think about it. It's cool though cause there wasn't an awkward moment, maybe for the first time when I met up with Gayle outside the mall- I was still not used to her strong American accent. (I just killed a bug with a tissue btw) TM's party was very.. interesting, haha. Me and Jan took a picture with Alex Band from The Calling! and Amerie too :D I felt so weird, not only because I got a haircut (mind you, the hairdresser clayed my hair up! so weird man) and yeah.. I felt so 'girly' it was scary! It was nice getting compliments from my friends though, saying that I looked different/nice blahblah.... but I'm the worse person that you can give compliments to dude, just because I don't say anything after that hahahaha.

GCSE RESULTS are out in 8 and a half hours! I'm not that nervous or excited, to be honest I'm not bothered that much anymore. I really can't believe I'm going back to JIS again, I really wish I went to some other college where I could study graphic design, photography, music (in a much higher standard) etcetc. I haven't even listened to the 2CDS Mr.Thin gave me (for music).. talking about music, I'll be sitting my grade8 piano exam in 15 days, and I'm heckaa not ready!!! I still need to work on my arpeggios, 3rd aparts, 6th aparts, chromatics, sight reading (!!!), AURAL(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), Beethoven piece, Bach piece, but not so much of the Mendelssohn piece. Heck I need to work on everything!! I need to glue myself to the piano man.. which is why I haven't been going out so much these past few days, I kinda 'calmed' myself down from going out till late at night.

I was reading a sermon note in Cornerstone The Church, and I learned a few things! Like for example, our motives may not be visible, but they are very very significant. In order for us to have motivation, we need the right motives to have the right motivation and the right method! God sees what's hidden in our hearts and obviously examines our hearts. We cannot hide or fool God with what's really inside our hearts... I guess this is the reason why some Christians don't get blessed, it's cause their motives are wrong... and a wrong motive is seen as 'evil' in God's sight. James 4:3 "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives." I have learned that we need to have a sense of responsibility and ownership in order for us to have the right mindset to have the right motive, motivation and method. I don't know about you, but I want God to help me to achieve a correct pattern of thoughts/behaviour so that I can live my life to the fullest, knowing that I am doing things with the right motive and with the strong motivation that will keep me going the whole way through, and not just halfway.
I heard it from somewhere, not sure where but whenever I do something, I always remember that.. we should always do our possible best in whatever we do, never do things halfway, but knowing in the end that we did it with our best attempt :) especially when it's for God. I learned that I should praise God when I win, and when I lose. I did not expect the grade I got for my English Language, but I should praise Him anyway, giving Him all the thanks for such a wonderful English teacher- Mr.Flynn, and for him teaching me so many things throughout these past few years since he has taught me. However I was very much delighted with my grade for English Literature, and I praised Him for that too, giving Him thanks. I must admit, I was pretty upset about my grade for Eng.Lang but I just began talking to Him.. thanking Him anyway even though I wasn't in the best of moods or whatever. It feels good, you know? Giving Him the praise that He truly deserves. I love giving God the praise man, just because he deserves it.. He doesn't need our praise, because He's.. GOD.. you know? but as His children, it is only right for us to give Him our praise. Afterall that He has done for us, we would be crazy enough not to praise Him for whatever man. Through whatever circumstance, have hope. Never give up, and no to Dashboard Confessional because our hope does not "dangle on a string". Our HOPE is in the LORD JESUS who helps us through trials and tribulations, and our HOPE is far more stronger than those who have their hopes dangling on a stupid string.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is to always check on our hearts! Talk to it if you have to man (that's what I do haha) ask how your heart is! If it's feeling a little bit upset, talk to it.. talk to God.. and mostly just surrendering your heart to Him. It is also important that we maintain a pure heart (the right motive). If we choose (again, it's about choices.. it's always about choices and making them) to maintain a pure heart, out of this, the wellspring of our lives will flow out the right energy (motivation). Then, with motivation will come a right procedure that brings about desired results! (method) :) When you find yourself struggling in maintaining a pure heart or whatever, always always look upon the LORD and ask Him to help you cleanse yourself of your wrong motives and replace them with the right ones.

(PSALM 129:23-24)
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; and see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.."

I believe that He will lead us into the way everlasting, and that He will correct us when we are at fault. I pray that just as for me, He will also help you make the right choices and help you notice your wrong motives. I pray that you will look upon Him for guidance and will start to have the right motives and motivation in doing things.. especially daily things in your life :) AMEN!